♥ Tuesday, December 05, 2006 ♥
3:43:00 PM
just few days ago then i realised why i always feel different when i'm working and when i'm in parkway wif my staffs. now i know why they always have the different degree of looks when they see me. i understood it now. but wad can i do? turn back the time till pri 6 and flunk my exams and b like them or wad is it? since i'm in my current state, u cant blame me for this and b in the position. it's not as if i ever had a 'i'm a high and mighty person' attitude, neither did i scorn at anyone and said 'oh, y u so stupid' etc stuffs. so stop giving me tt look. give me a chance to prove tt i'm not that kind of person cuz i'll never b.
manager give me 2 days of OFF! yeah!! *cheers* but i have to work full (11-10) on 2 days, 2 mornings (11-7) and one half morning (1015-2)
i miss miss tan, mdm yap, 4e3 darlings, wanling, joyce, annabelle, tpss staffs, des, sujun.
it've been so long. months and months ago already. why cant i take tt as a joke, something which i practically forgot long ago since everything has ended? why cant i shut my brain of tt incident? y cant i forget abt it. i'm angry. but not wif the person involve, bt myself. i told myself upteen times to forget, but y cant i do it? why why why? is this under the section on over-reliance on someone? thus i can never forget? i hate it whenever i had free time during work cuz i realised i ended up crying in the storeroom.
the days u spent w/o me were just the same, but it's not the same towards me you see. i hate trying to act okay when i'm not, when i'm bleeding inside. trying to act reading when i'm glancing in ur direction. but, in the end, i realised ur gaze were somewhere else.
goodbye (:
have u ever love and lost somebody
ishing there was a chance to say i'm sorry?
can u see, tt's the way i feel abt u and me
have u ever felt ur heart was breaking
lookin down at the road u shld be taking?
i shld've known the day i let u go.
